Governments exist to meet the needs of the citizenry. I would hear the word 'father,' or I'd hear the word 'boyfriend,' 'husband,' 'dad,' and I would gravitate towards it. Read by Paula Stone Williams About The Book Reading Group Guide About The Author Product Details Related Articles Raves and Reviews Resources and Downloads As a Woman Trade Paperback Get a FREE ebook by joining our mailing list today! At .58 percent of the population, we trans folks are definitely a minority. Whenever other people are involved, you confirm the facts with them, or when that is not possible, with others who were present. I am about as privileged as a transgender person can get, but even I have received an uptick in emails, texts, and other forms of anti-trans rhetoric aimed at me. Between novels I read historical books. But you take yourself with yourself wherever you go, and eventually the limerence stage of young love, with a place or a person, yields to the always restless longings of the soul. April 1, 2023 April 1, 2023 / Paula Stone Williams / 4 Comments. I find it lacking. Over 300 anti-transgender bills are currently pending in over 35 states. I've discovered who of my former life truly cares about me, and moreover, I've come to love myself. I am very concerned about the rights of transgender and non-binary individuals. I am a man and living as the man I am saved my life. Ill let you know how it turns out. It is not as bad as the horrible misogyny of fundamentalist Muslims in Afghanistan, nor as bad as a fictional America in Margaret Atwoods The Handmaids Tale, but its bad enough. Nope, nothing funny there. Within the world of most scripture scholars, this type of biblical interpretation was dismissed more than a century ago. Then came 2016. Nicole Vickey Pastor nicole@envisioncommunitychurch.org Everything I read of late tells me the church is dying. We both have deep friendships and good work. I worked hard on the book. [5] She currently lives in Colorado. Once I realized that not all "females" are like me I started to second guess myself. A long journey over water clears the mind. I was slowly killing myself within this facade of being this girl I never was. My other reading is of books with spines and covers and words on cream-colored pages. Psychologists dont usually mention Jungian analysts. What I want people to see is a man when they stare in my eyes. They said, The Bible speaks against homosexual behavior. My problem was and still is that describing what it means to be transgender is as painful as being transgender. I feared myself. Add to that the fact that someone took it upon themselves to inform the Bay Shore, Long Island school district that our marital status should be researched, and you realize there are a lot of people out there who want to make my life difficult. Ive had the privilege of meeting and hearing the stories of other transgender people like me and people who belong to non-western genderslike Indian hijra or Native American two-spirit or Samoan fa'afafine. Close friends say I am a better person. It seemed to go well, though you can never tell when youre sitting in your living room talking on Zoom and viewers are scattered all over the planet. I was unable to distinguish a difference between me and my brother, despite our parents constantly referring to me as his sister. Bathroom remain an anxiety-producing place for many, especially with the rash of ridiculous legislation prohibiting us from using the facilities that match our identities. Gender roles don't have to dictate our lives. Rarely do we hear stories about people with disabilities declaring their own unique gender identity or sexuality. I'm not telling people what's going on in my life. Most of the time Im sad, and often I am considerably frightened. Our moms both had to grieve the loss of a child. It supports independent organizers who want to create a TED-like event in their own community. I am usually reading at least two books at the same time. I miss my old home and the many things I lost, but I wouldn't trade what I gained for any of that, now. I simply know in my heart and mind Im a woman. Discovering that there was a name for what I was, that it was a medical conditionthis was magical. My journey is still very new but I relish each day that I grow into becoming my best and most authentic self. After her transition, she has struggled to come to terms with her voice. I no longer feel like Im living outside my own body. Trust me, you dont wanna miss them. Given the advice "follow your child's lead" my parent's let me come to terms with my gender. If you turn to the page, the quote is underlined or in brackets. Paula is one of the founding Pastors of Envision Community Church. There is no room for passive citizenship. I showed everyone that I was a man, at least on the outside. It was also a difficult secret to keep, Jonathan explained. In a way coming out as a gender neutral, non-binary trans person was more than just claiming who I am, it was also about coming out as one of two twins. My transition wasn't a distraction, it didn't cause an uproar, and I didn't lose respect among peers. Its been on my mind because I have the pleasure of coaching TEDxMileHigh speakers and I am always amazed at the breadth and depth of their talks. I can say the hardest thing for me was trying to figure out if I was disappointing God in my life decision. I know that all I want to do is to give people a voice that speaks louder than mine. Figuring out who I am, and living my life with integrity has been the grand challenge of my lifetime. I really hope that through creating visibility of diverse gender experiences we can break down the stigma. I never say anything to anyone when I know they havent read it, even people to whom Ive given a copy of the book. Yep. She is lives in Boulder, Colorado. Terry Schilling, president of the American Principles Project, told the New York Times that their goal is to ban transgender care for anyone of any age. Of course a TED Talk on transgender issues would not have any traction outside of the United States. Mike said, Which is what makes this so tragic. Our respect for each other remains, as does our love. We are redefining the expectations and stigma of what it is to be transgender. Growing up queer and learning I was transgender made me feel searing pain as well as transcendent highs. But wait a minute, right wing folks dont watch TED talks. Behind closed doors, however, Paul was beginning to embrace a different life as Paula. Living life as an openly bisexual transsexual Quaker man has been a real blessing. With humor, insight, and a surprisingly candid perspective, Paula will increase your understanding, answer your questions, and help you navigate the dangerous cultural waters of sex and gender politics. I joined the service to find who I am, and in the most unexpected way, I did. Paula Williams at the CPR studios Wednesday Dec. 19 2018. I drank too much and did my best to put on a happy face, but it was pretty brutal.". The church is where we celebrate the milestones of life, be it births, weddings, funerals, the solstices, or some obscure religious celebration known only to ones peculiar tradition. I was afraid of what would happen to my career; and at heart I was embarrassed. People always expect me to tell them horror stories. My perennial exile from employment is evidence of the near-clinical consequences of overt trans discrimination that eludes legal accountability. Transgender adolescents have a suicide completion rate 13 times higher than their peers. TED Conferences, LLC. Therefore, we do need to be cautious when prescribing estrogen, testosterone, or anti-androgens. Paul Williams, who led the conservative church planting organizationOrchard Groupfor 20 years,has publicly come out as a transgender woman named Paula Stone Williams. "She said transgender," Jonathan said, referring to his father. Seeking health careany kind of health carecan still be scary. Neither one of us wanted this, and it is profoundly difficult to know how to move forward. Host(s): Kate Archer Kent. I flipped the page back over and wrote above my head, above my female head, in a quick scrawl - "I am whoever I want to be.". Being surrounded by the ocean reminds me of the eternal toing and froing of the tides. I'm too stubborn to not be myself, so I've never hidden who I was. I asked, How many couples are willing to work this hard? Mike, not given to hyperbole, answered, One percent. I asked, How many couples get this far in working out their stuff? Again, he said, One percent. Then he spoke the sentence we both found devastating. Sometimes people step up and take big risks for social justice, but there are an infinite number of moments when you can help out in the small ways. But, in the end, I found myself. That minority is made up of white, evangelical Christians, and they believe it is their God-given responsibility to enforce their moral code on the entire nation. Dr. Paula Williams spent 13 years as the host of a national television show (viewed by millions) and served as the Chairman and CEO of The Orchard Group a non-profit organization that starts new churches in the US- for 34 years. My cousin had died. Stopping anti-trans laws from being signed into law will solve that problem. Paul is called to die. Some of the complaints about the ministry come from pastors who started churches with them. It's a battlefield with my body using guerrilla warfare on my mind. Says Schools Can Be Investigated for Wrong Pronoun Use for Transgender Students, This week in Christian history: Scottish Archbishop murdered, Donatists given toleration, Court orders utility company restore power to church's rehab shelter, Mike Stone accepts nomination for SBC president, set to challenge Pres. After working with 24 speakers last year, I keep thinking more and more about the subject of my next talk. I love vacationing in Hawaii, and often peruse sales listings on the Internet after I get home. Pretty soon audiences forget they are hearing a trans story and just hear a human story. I thought I was gay and I that I had it all figured out, but as I would find out years later my story was even deeper. The novels are eclectic, from Cormac McCarthy to Wendell Berry to Kelly Rimer. It is because of our societys rejection of them, which results in internalized transphobia. "I better live a long time," says Paula, now 70, "because I have a lot to make up for.". "I thought one option would be for them to think to themselves, 'Oh, wow. Paula has been featured in the New York Times, TEDWomen, TEDSummit, Red Table Talk, TEDxMileHigh, the Denver Post, National Public Radio, ABC, and many other media outlets. Ive met with everyone who has asked to meet with me, but that is exactly three people. But not before I slipped into a deep depression that took me years to crawl out of. Activism has proven to be a great outlet for me to improve the lives of Transgender youth in Florida. Paula Stone Williams' book ""As a Woman: What I Learned About Power, Sex, and the Patriarchy After I Transitioned" Photo: Simon & Schuster / Atria Books "As a Woman" is a straightforward, chronological telling of how Williams went from being the son of an evangelical father, a Bible college student and a virginal husband at 22 to a trans activist and pastor preaching an entirely . I was reading an article last week that said people are no longer attending religious services, but they are reaching out for the help of a spiritual director or pastoral counselor. Today I am free of the person I was, in order to be the person I so desperately needed to be. Danny Lavery welcomes Paula Stone Williams, an internationally known speaker on gender equity, LGBTQ advocacy, and religious tolerance. But the storm of my transition has left a road full of boulders and branches. The struggle has been real for almost 30 years but I have managed to make a life for myself despite the pain and heartache. I don't know if I can stay a man. I avoid my home states of Ohio, Kentucky, and West Virginia, unless I know I am going to be in a supportive environment. As Paula describes her church's guiding principle: "There's room for us all . Ive been living as Paula for nine years. Another problem is that social pendulums perpetually swing from one extreme to the other. They feel abandoned. I have been bullied and been called terrible names, even though that has happened I don't let that change who I am. "Transgender teens with unsupportive parents have a suicide rate 13 times higher than their peers. With my conservatively family we have learned to walk together in a love the can never be separated or destroyed. If the church didnt exist, wed have to invent it. Who would have the temerity to say, I dont read books? Apparently, a lot of people. Ive been contemplating what my next TED talk should be about. Corporations exist to benefit their shareholders. When did I want it? I never fit in with anything towards the female stereotype. Theyve grown rapidly, have a huge position in the market, and have managed to get themselves into a fair amount of trouble over the last few years. And the condescension Cathy experienced from the health services administrator left her in tears. But if I do that talk, then the whole world will know how old I am, and if you havent noticed, age discrimination is real. 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Paula Stone Williams is an internationally known speaker on gender equity, LGBTQ advocacy, and religious tolerance. At the age of 65, I knew I couldnt keep up the pretense much longer. Thanks Longmont Times-Call. Some books have hardly an unmarked page. While I appreciate what a Laverne Cox is doing, she is also setting the expectation, training society, that hers is the look of trans people. Life, though much harder, is much better - much more real. Tom Fitton, president of Judicial Watch, said gender affirming treatment is a demonic assault on the innocence of our children. Demonic? Being transgender has never been about clarity or precision or fact not in the traditional sense. Ive had trials come about because of the book. My wife would be like, 'You're super depressed,' and I'd go, 'I know, I'm super depressed, I don't know what to do about this.' I felt awkward, not only around people but with myself. You are a lesbian and Cathy is not.. You tell things as you remember them. There is something appealing about the one spot on earth in which you are farther from land than any other place. Then her name was Paul. This pain is better than the sheer torture of a melancholy existence where the brain is constantly searching for a body it can't find just yet. That as a trans leader, offering education and outreach for my community, I'm not afraid to fight. When I can get out of the way of my own tendency toward self-condemnation, its own kind of self-centeredness, I see the bigger picture. Yep, thats the problem. I now have 10 years of obligation to the US Navy, and that decade looks extremely daunting. Williams . Do they get how self-limiting their lives are? My agent keeps asking me the next book thats up my sleeve. My body is a discordant note in the symphony of my life. What is going on? Like all major tipping points, this change has been bubbling beneath the surface a long time. When my memoir was published, every interviewer asked about my friends in my old life. I believe we have to make our lives beautiful and I have the intention of tending to mine like a beloved garden. My experience of gender put me in touch with my very humanness, as I examined my own soul against the torrents of others doubts and disappointments. They have not. The relative ease with which I found resources and care, in a city with a large trans community, makes me feel grateful and humbled. I think of the Paul Simon song sometimes, the one that goes, 'I believe in the future we will suffer no more. Knowles is not the only one making inflammatory statements. I spent a lot of money and devoted a great deal of energy to add an a to my name. I had wonderful text exchanges with my co-pastors, and with the chair of our church board. They always ask the same painful question, 'What do I do now?' Some days I am male, some days I am female, some days I am neither; some days I am both. There was a day, not so long ago, when I felt safe anywhere in America. Instead, I steered the conversation to the many blessings I have experienced since my transition. Paula has been featured in theNew York Times, TEDWomen, TEDSummit, TEDxMileHigh,Red Table Talk, theDenver Post, the New York Post,New Scientistmagazine,Radio New Zealand and many other media outlets. We take spiders outside and wish them well on their journey. (It is an honor to be among that 100.). Ryan's chosen "As A Woman" by Paula Stone Williams. On our anniversary we had a wonderful dinner together at our favorite restaurant. This is not a rhetorical question. Who knew they would choose transgender people? I have friends, and an absolutely amazing girlfriend for support. Dr. Paula Stone Williams is uniquely qualified to address this topic with mental health practitioners, pastors, educators, and corporate leaders. Yet when I was assigned to my regular unit, the old feelings came back. I am blessed. My five granddaughters think I should do a talk about them you know like how extraordinary and brilliant they are and how remarkable that is, you know, given the fact that they carry my genetic material and all. Apprentices work at our direction to do the work. i started to understand that my gender was fluid, the same way music was. I just did a speech on resilience last week. Its fewer than a dozen, and three of them didnt realize they were talking with the person who used to preach for them. However, what I can provide as a pastoral counselor is not what a person can gain from regular involvement in a religious community. Every now and again, I check out their latest news. We only want what you want. Starting when she was 4, Paula asked God during her bedtime prayer to wake up as a girl because she knew she was "in the wrong body." Please click here to learn how. I love that the church is the place that celebrates all of lifes comings and goings. I have entire new categories of having been dismissed that I did not have when I did my first talk in 2017. I have experienced happiness for the first time in my life. Nevertheless, frightened evangelicals got news coverage, while anything positive about transgender people was absent from the pages of the paper. If you told me I was Transgender 5 years ago, I would have denied it. Judiasm teaches that you should love everyone, and at my school I was no exception. A few were not. Today, Cathy lives about twenty-five minutes away. She served as president of the Christian church planting organization Orchard Group from 1989 to 2009. Censoring their feelings, image and actions; many trans folk present an alter ego publicly for fear of discrimination! The question I most often get is why would you join the military knowing the regulations on transgender service? In this talk, she reflects about the male privilege she once had and how she's being treated now as a woman. My gender is not that simple. Seriously? Paula went on to attend Kentucky Christian University and, in her senior year, to marry the woman she loved, Cathy. Their doctrinal positions are based on a very narrow type of hermeneutics and exegesis best described as literalism or originalism. By subscribing, you understand and agree that we will store, process and manage your personal information according to our. In my opinion, that is a sign of their deep shame about their behavior. I find any religion lacking that leads with judgment instead of leading with acceptance and love.". It all started in the 1980s with the Moral Majority. For transgender people of all walks of life, nothing matches the devastation of seeing someone who used to respect you come to see you as an insect. Sometimes I discover they havent read it when Im talking about something that is in the book like throughout the entire book and they know nothing about what I am saying. We were children, really. As my body changed, my mind changed for the better. I received my annual sales numbers for my memoir. I simply want to be my real, honest, true, natural, indeterminate self. The kind of people I have in my life nowadays are astonished that such a thing could have happened. One of my long-time friends who works for American Airlines made sure Cathy and I got out of town before a snowstorm so we could get to a long-awaited vacation in Hawaii. "I am learning a lot about what it means to be a female, and I am learning a lot about my former gender," she says. The board members of the town in which I live were all encouraging one another to run for office again next year. I knew all my life that I was a girl, but growing up in the 1950's I just swallowed it and held it down. Once I hit female puberty all I wanted was for it to stop; it was pure agony. One of my undergraduate professors told me to scare myself everyday, because courage is a muscle which needs to be exercised. With everything in me, I hope Rilke is right. The greatest concerns I have are not about hormonal treatment. Do you know how many of those people have had conversations with me since I transitioned? It takes hearing peoples stories and being in close proximity to one another to narrow the political divide. I went through my entire childhood, ignoring the fact that there was something different about me. And I went to him for three, four years dealing with it.". Ive cut my ties with things that literally bound me to a life I was miserable living. The church is messy. Now that the Dobbs decision has been handed down, we see America waking up to the outsize power these groups wield. Yep. I believe the majority of those young people will eventually decide they are not transgender. At the encouragement of a friend, I just finished re-reading Bren Browns The Gifts of Imperfection. No one should feel embarrassed to be themselves. December 31, 1972 was a rainy day on Long Islands south shore. Freedom to live authentically, to support our families and our communitiesand to be loved. The church exists to celebrate the moments of our lives, and to join in common cause to produce the miraculous. Like an amoeba under a microscope, Im a living data point. Every step towards being female made me feel better than I had ever thought possible. not buying into the binary was such a relief. I never really had a name for it until I was an adult. Join us to hear from Dr. Paula Stone Williams about her experience journeying from male to female and from despair to joy. It was critical for me to show what it meant to be a trans identifying individual in the workplace and the world. What saved me was a return to faith, realizing that no matter what, God still loved me, and that I with His help, I would be able to muster up the nerve to move forward. I always thought I would find rejection if the secret I hid from my parents was ever discovered. It is time for trans allies, accomplices, and apprentices to speak up on our behalf. This war with my gender identity has not been a swift or simple one. We need apprentices, willing to take direction from the trans community, to help us battle the ignorance and prejudice permeating our nation. I probably do not give enough weight to the emotional effect of having the world I inhabited for five decades turn its back on me. My journey as a trans man has really been about me becoming a man of my design. Tell us what youre interested in and well send you talks tailored just for you. Though I must admit, it is definitely easier coaching TED speakers than being one. Beyond the health insurance fiasco and the hate mail, I have a rich and rewarding life. Reverend Paula Stone Williams (born 1951) is an American pastoral counselor. I had known I was different since I was six, but didn't know how and anyway, "different" meant "bad" to so many people. When people step up and people treat each other like human beings and not some sort of scandal, things can go right and there can be a happy ending. I am living a happy, proud, and gender fuzzy life these days. I was feeling more comfortable as I was dressing more masculine which seemed to give me a bit more confidence. I keep thinking of the threat we are to society.
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